If its the last thing I ever do.

I need to get out of this relationship.  Its toxic.  My husband of the last 4 years has gone from sweet to beyond violent.  I have suffered many injuries from him ranging from a bloodied mouth to having to get stitches in my ankle.  He has punched me, kicked me, slapped me, whipped me with cable wires, thrown radiators at me, and has become mildly violent to my oldest child.  I can no longer take the verbal, emotional, mental and physical abuse this man has put me through.  I only have 2 problems when it comes to that.  No job/money, and he's the father of my baby.  If I could kick him out of the house and afford the bills I would since I like my home.  I made it into my own space, and even have a room devoted to my craft.  But I know I need help from at least one other person, and only have one room available to give them, and its a small one.  No, I'm not asking anyone to move in with me, I just know I need at least one other person, or even a couple to live here with me.

I know it won't be an easy process, going through a divorce is the last thing I want to have to do, but I need to do it to protect me, and my children.

I'm just wondering if the spells I've been casting lately to protect my children, would be what made my dad sick.

I'm not sure why I would even think that, but he was just diagnosed with leukemia, and he's been a horse of a healthy person my whole life, and now in the past 2 years he's had 2 heart attacks, and now has leukemia.

I don't know how much more I can handle before I crack and start going on a spree.

I love my dad, and if there was a magickal way to make him better I would do it in a heartbeat, but I know that's impossible.  Magick is not a cure all, and may only be a band aid trying to close an arterial puncture, but goddess I wish there was something I could do to fix him.

I have some bad vibes in the house.  They've invaded my kids dreams.  The baby has been having nightmares for sometime now, and they seem to have gotten better since I put a dream catcher up over the bed, and sea salt and lavender around the bed.  The same with the oldest. 

I think it may have to do something with my one friend.  He says he has his guardian demon watching the house its name is Ronve.  It was told not to enter the house, and I don't think it can due to my fae.  Though if I look up demonic entities with her name it shows me an exact picture of how she appears to me.  I really don't believe in too much of the demon stuff, but through research lately I have come to accept it as a part of life.   I'm not sure what else to do... if there is a portal open in my house, no amount of cleansing, or banishing will stop more from coming in.

I am the Lady Morrigan.  I have been a solitary practitioner for 14 years, and have recently been admitted into a coven.  My path involves many different branches, and I follow each to my hearts desire, branches such as druidic, celtic, wiccan, dianic, and some others as well, but if I told them there would be no mystery right?